Here we are in San Antonio

Here we are in San Antonio. We made it through all the rain on the way here. Now the doctor's report. Everyting has progressed. One tumor has grown from 3.7 to 11cm. But I am still trusting in God and waiting for Him to show them. They want me to go back in two months. Soooo the roller coaster is in motion and I am not going to let it get me feeling bad. I am going to believe the report of the Lord when He led me to the scripture that "this sickness is not unto death, but the bring glory to God that the son of God may be glorified thereby." I was also thinking before getting the results and since then that "His grace is sufficient". I have been reading the book of Daniel and I will be like the three Hebrew men who said "I know my God is able to deliver me, but if not.... I am still going to serve him."

That's all for now folks.

Love you all and thanks for all your prayers.

Waiting to get out of town!

Well here I am waiting to get out of town. Had my van checked over last week for the trip out of town. Wish I had never taken it in. I got it back Thursday night. I didn't use it Friday and Saturday late I went to the store. The engine light came on coming home from the store. I looked under the hood and checked the belt to see if it was turning. (They had put a new one on) I called the van place and they said I would have to wait until the day after Christmas because they were closing. I heard a little whistle and my brother from NY said that I must have a leak in one of my exhaust whatevers and to have them check that out. Then I took the van to church on Sunday since they couldn't look at it till Tuesday. On the way home my breaks seemed really low. I stopped at a stop sign and pumped them. (Isn't this suppose to bring them up some?) Well it didn't, in fact it brought forth a strong burning odor. Needless to say I was very upset and did not drive and futher. I went home and didn't even go out to eat. I took it this morning to the place that did the work on it. On the way there while going 35 miles an hour it lurched and acted like I had just taken my foot completely off the gas. Which I hadn't. I prayed the rest of the way there going 25 mph. I was reading Sis. Haney's book in the parking lot while I was waiting for the place to open. Of course the book is talking about patience and trusting in God, not saying anything wrong when you want to say something. Being a saint of God. Things like that so I am very nice when I go in. I even say I am trying very hard to be very nice because I am not very happy. I have to get out of town and my van is worse than when I brought it in here last week. Sooooooo... here I am printing up a few mapquests and checking out the blogs. Need to finish packing and waiting on the van people to call me. In Jesus' Name it is all going to work out and we'll get there sometime tonight. Hopefully we will be able to hook up tonight at the hotel. Hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas. We did with friends and family.

Christmas Day

Well is it over yet? I awoke to the sound of the phone, not reindeer.

My sister was calling to say she would be over even earlier than she had said last evening. We looked for the gravy mix and of course couldn't find it. Even though a second look found it right where it was suppose to be.

My sister arrived before the older boys. First the Christmas story, then prayer, they got to see how we start the day. Then they got to view all the wrapping paper flying through the air. Next we all had breakfast. My niece and her family came over, ate, and they opened their gifts.

It took a bit to get both the ipods working. There wasn't a lot of tears all morning so everything went pretty good.

Now all the food is in the crockpots for the second round of food. I hope everyone is having a blessed day. Off to Houston tomorrow and waiting for the good news.
And if not I will repeat to myself what I told Sis. Shahan, "Whose report will we believe?"

We are in the hands of the Lord and He is in control.

Busy, busy, busy

off and running. Church this morning and getting ready for Christmas. Have to get the cookies and pies done. Thought I would do a brisket and just slice it and put it in bar-b-que sauce for tomorrow. Need to make the salad. Oh well, that is what happens when you are a procastinator. No turkey this year. Sandwiches and stuff in crockpots. That way if anyone comes by we can offer them everything. Stop by and see what is left or stop early and get while the getting is good.

Read about an ovarian cancer miracle......Don't Take the Repeats: On the subject of miracles

New Drug is Navelbine

The new drug the doctors have ordered is Navelbine. If anyone out there has taken this type of chemo with Avastin, let me know what to expect. I really don't want to lose my hair again. The doctors have agreed I will continue this chemo until we find out if it is working or not. If not we will go to the abraxane that the insurance company has finally okayed.

The last post was to let you think of Christmas past. Let me know your favorite memory from a Christmas past. Christmas is such a happy time of the year.

Have a great day everyone, in Jesus' Name.

Memories of Christmas Past

As Christmas comes it always seems to have you reflecting on the past. You remember as a child and certain memories. The time I got the bike that my brother bought me when he was just 14. He had bailed hay that year and spent most of his hard earned money on my brother and I. The time I lost a pin my other brother had bought me. We think it went out with all the wrapping paper on the floor. Next my stepfather loved Christmas and there were toys and toys and more toys. The time our family had the foster boys and I was a teenager, the living room was half full of gifts. Then when I got married. Joe was from a large family so he was not use to the amount of gifts my family gave. He became a little child again. He loved Christmas and quickly came to celebrate it as my family had for years. It took a few years for him to learn a few lessons. Like: I want several presents, not just one or two. And I do not want things for the house, I want personal items. (Now if I ask for a specific thing for the house that will make my life easier that is okay). And last but not least, you do not have to spend a lot of money to make me happy. It is the thought behind the gift that matters. We always went to my Mom's after the boys had opened their gifts. We had breakfast and met with my sibling's families to exchange gifts. Then we came home and had an open house with buffet type foods. Friends and family would stop by at their leisure. Joe would make sure we remembered Jesus for a moment before the boys dug in under the tree. We filled half the living room when the foster kids came. And now..... well let me just keep remembering Christmas' Past.

God is Awesome

I tried to steal a picture from Echoes from the Elms but it didn't work. But...church was so great last night. As I posted on the Elms site I was so looking forward to the visit from Sis. Nona Freeman.

One of the first books I read after going to church was one of hers. It was such a faith builder. I am looking forward to reading her latest book, Everything is going to be Okay.

Well, I was not disappointed by her visit. God used her in a mighty way. It's just so impressive how God uses this elderly lady to continue to minister for Him. I am believing in my complete healing and waiting for MD Anderson to confirm it. I will be going down there after Christmas and will be waiting for them to become very confused. Not only am I believing the cancer to be gone, but the gall stones and the hernia. Things the doctors have not worried about but have been somewhat of a problem. (Not so much as cancer, but....)

Anyways, God is awesome and I thank Him for the work He is doing in my life. I would love to carry on the cross of building other's faith as Sis. Freeman has all these years. To God be the glory!

Merry Christmas! And those of you who know me, know that I have a pillsbury doughboy kitchen. So for this Christmas I thought I would share with you my doughboy tree. If you click on the picture it got soooo big on my screen you could clearly see the doughboys. Some of them I made with Crayola magic clay. Some I ordered off of EBay. Anyway have a very merry Christmas.

Thanks for the Prayers

Thanks for all your prayers! Friday I got a sharp pain and then I stopped to think it was the first time I felt that pain that day. I was not in pain almost constantly, like I had been for the past few weeks. I know God is still touching and working and I guess He just needed to remind me. School is out for the holidays and I am now looking at getting everything done that I have put off for this time. Isn't it something how we end up saving so much that we might not even get all that done? Teachers know what I am talking about though. Have a blessed day everyone and thanks again for your prayers. Don't stop now!

Busy, Busy Day

Well, first thing was Christmas party at Alamo. Just imagine 18 second graders going to see Santa. Oh my, I was exhausted when I got home. One of the students asked me if that was the "real" Santa. I said, "He was a real Santa helper." He said I didn't think he was the real Santa because he didn't have glasses. (forget the fake hair and beard)

When I got home the nurse called from the cancer center. My new chemo has been approved but they want to continue this one and leave that just in case. You know they all have their pros and cons, and yes I know that and so I am good with that. God is in control anyways.

Last, the younger boys, my sister and I went to a memorial service out at the funeral home for those who have passed away this year. It was very nice of the Duttons to do this. They gave each family a beautiful ornament with a poem in remembrance of their loved ones. I was okay until I read the last line of the poem which is what is on the ornament. "I love you all dearly, now don't shed a tear, cause I'm spending my Christmas with Jesus this year." My sister just started crying when she saw the ornament because she had seen one and she said she has looked everywhere for this ornament. Well, she is very happy I have it and the Duttons will have it engraved after the holidays for us. Thanks Duttons you do your ministry the best!

You can all check out Joe's memory and leave a tribute at the www.mem.com website. You do need to type in Ouellette or you can just go to the right side of my post and click on the link.

One more (or should I say half of a day) of school. The kids will be wild tomorrow. Then chemo in the afternoon. Thanks for all your prayers and please pray specifically for my left side and the tumors to continue to shrink so I can be free of the pain that they like to cause.

Well had my new chemo on Friday. Went just about like the rest but not quite so bad. Had some aches and pains, had a headache, but was still able to function. So all in all not too bad. Was able to get a little Christmas shopping done on Saturday. Went to the Christmas drama at church and the dinner at Luby's tonight. It was great. Had me cry a few times when I saw Joe's picture in the slideshow, but I wouldn't have wanted them to not put him up there. It does make me sad to think that next year he won't be in the pictures. Well, I won't bore you all with my sad stories, don't want to make anyone sad at this joyous time of the year. As we were talking in Sunday school this morning, let us remember why He came and that is what made Christmas come about. Have a very merry Christmas. Just four and one half days until school is out for two weeks. Yipee!

Starting a new chemo Friday.

Well, thanks for all the prayers. I will be starting a new chemo tomorrow. Can't remember the name, but we could decided to try this one either until the other one is okayed. And who knows this one might be the one.

I know God is still in control. My oncologist said "and continue to pray" as I was leaving. I said "don't worry I have many people praying." I have been talking to him about God ever since the beginning.

God is doing a work. I don't know when, I don't know how. I will keep the scripture God gave me at the beginning of this roller coaster ride. "This sickness is not unto death, but to bring glory to God, that the son of man may be glorified thereby."

Heard from the insurance company.

Well, don't know how they can do it, but the insurance company has denied me the new chemo that the doctors want to give me. It just makes me wonder what God wants me to do. Trust in Him of course, but still try and get chemo? I hated it when the lady at Blue Cross Blue Shield kept telling me she knew what I felt. Was she sitting there with cancer and having her insurance company deny her treatment? I am trying not to be negative and to speak positively, but oh it gets so hard sometimes. Keep me in your prayers. Thanks for all your prayers already. I know if it was not for the Lord and the many times He has touched me through all this I would not be here today.