Here I am

Here I am still at the hospital bloggin from bed. I can't believe I have been here for a week already. I am still very much full of tumors but fever has been normal for days. They have quit worrying about the bowel movement and just want to keep everything moving down around there. I hope this is not to graphic for all of you but just want to keep everyone informed.

Mentally I am up this hour. I am trying to keep every thing natural as in moving around, walking more, drinking "ensure". Joseph has left the hospital to ge get some bay leaves and grape juice.

Can't Sleep

Joseph and I went out to dinner and getting old and senile at the same time I ordered flavored tea. Forgetting that me drinking tea late is like coffee so here I am not able to sleep, so I'll blog. I called the doctor for my CA125 marker numbers. They were terrible. Again a record high. 271. I cried. I just need prayers to be going up for me to take the right direction. I don't know which way to go. I will be talking to the CTCA in Zion on Monday. I don't know if I will wait until two weeks without doing anything. I also want to talk to them about doing surgery. I would rather get it done at the beginning of summer and be healed by the end, and if I had it soon, I should be okay for the wedding. So just pray that I stay in the Lord's will for all this, that He continues to lead me and direct me. I would love for Him to send me an itinerary that is a little more in depth than He has giving us, but I will continue to do as I feel He is directing me.

Home Again

Still feeling lousy. I came home yesterday before lunch and called in today. My stepfather was put into the hospital last night. They said he has severe anemia. They gave him three pints of blood last night. I will try to get by there to see if and I also have to go get my blood work done today. So everyone have a great day.

God is good, all the time.

Jason's Nose

Was on first base, someone hit him, missed ball, jumped from glove to nose. That's the story I heard.

Saturday Expecting Jason

I am excited. I have been up for over 4 hours and waiting for the time that Jason comes in. I have not seen him since he broke his nose. I am waiting to see how he looks. They (the doctor) is suppose to break it on Tuesday and fix it. Hopefully all will be well for the wedding pics. :-) Joseph is here and fixing me lunch. My sister came over and brought donuts, then called Jody and her crew come over. So now you can see why I have been up for so long. Pray for strength saints.

Love you all bunches

I work with Awesome People

I am home, It is after 2. My boss sent me home and told me to take my medicine. He said I was P------ him off. He didn't give me those days to waste He wants me to take them and get well, go home and call in for the next few days. I said okay. I have been soooooo sick, never has a chemo kicked me down so bad, but the good news is it must be kicking the cancer that bad also.

I have had someone offered and doing my lesson plans for the remainder of the year. I have dinner coming over tonight. I came home during my planning period and took a catnap and our secretary gave me a wake up call. I just work with such caring people. Pray a prayer of blessing on my Alamo family. We are a very close staff.

Love everyone else in my life also. I don't know how anyone could go through all this without the Lord first and then a very supportive group of people. I have family, church family and work family. I have friends also but they are all so tremendous they seem more like family.

Sorry for my bosses use of language it was in the office with the door closed so no children at least heard him. He usually watches his language very well. He is the best boss.

Trying to go to Work

Well, I am up and trying to put in a day's work. I got up Monday and went in and came home within a few hours. I didn't even try yesterday. This new chemo pill is really hard to take. I am having a very hard time not feeling nausea even with all the pills they have given me. I just want to stay in bed and sleep and sleep. Well I am going to try and take the pills starting after school and during the night. Maybe that way I can stay well enough to go to work. There are only 13 more days left of school. I really would like to be able to function normally today. So if you are reading this just please say a little prayer for me to be feeling well and be able to do my job.

Thanks

The Blessings of God

Joe's Father was baptised in Jesus Name today. I know if Joe has any idea of what is going on in this earth below he is rejoicing that his father, who has held out for thirty years, finally was baptised in Jesus' Name. I know those of us who are still here are so excited.

Then Raelinn prayed and prayed and almost received the holy ghost. She would have if she didn't keep getting scared every time she was feeling the feeling of speaking in tongues.

God is so good. I am excited about what God is doing in the midst of my family. Praise Ye the Lord Everyone.

Topotecan

Sounds like a tropical drink. Just picture yourself sitting in a chaise lounge on a Bahamian island, feeling the breeze from the ocean on your face, beautiful soft teal water, glistening in the sun. And you are sipping on some exotic drink, doesn’t have to have liquor in it, just has to have the coconut, fruit, ice and umbrella sticking out. Oh how relaxing.

Now for the truth. You are being infused through the shoulder area with drugs. Drugs that will make you sick and ultimately, hopefully make you well. Why would they make a chemo drug sound so exotic?

Just my cancer thought for the day!

New Chemo is really Old

Well, just came back from the doctors and found out the chemo pills I am on are really the older pills they use to use to fight ovarian cancer. They are making me so sick. I don't know if this is good or not. It seems the sicker I am when on chemo the more it does against the cancer. The better I feel the less it seems to be working. So I guess I just need to hang in there for a few weeks until I have a few weeks off. Again the doctor here was not very encouraging. He said it was just a last chance effort from the doctor up there and it was just like flipping a coin as to what may work and may not. I get depressed enough without him making me feeling worse. Oh well, thanks for all your prayers, don't even want to think of where I would be without them.